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Father of Love
03:27
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please don't listen to them
I never meant to come off that way
don't believe what they say.
I was meant to be a father of love
from the ground below to the heavens above
but man can never get enough.
why would you do this to me?
turning my words into something I never meant them to be
guess it's how life goes
when no one really knows.
you said I'd send you to hell
well, there isn't one, baby, just to let you know
don't believe what they say.
what kind of god would I be
if I really made you bend down on one knee?
no, I want you to be free.
please don't speak for me
like you've seen me before, or even know my voice.
no, please don't speak for me
'cause I'm everything, not just one beast,
sitting on a throne, and judging you
and telling you where to go.
please don't listen to them
I never meant to come off that way.
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2. |
Stockholm Blues
03:36
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now, the party has just begun
he said as he pointed his gun
at the three women in the bank on friday.
no wait, what have I become?
I'm really not that bad
I just lost control
at the curve in the road and I ended up here
just feeling all alone.
see I had this wife
who controlled my whole life
every time she'd do me wrong
I'd just hang my head and I'd put it in a song
just wishing I belonged.
but I didn't understand
this rejection drove me closer to her
and I hung my head and felt defeated
just wishing I belonged.
so, you miss me when I'm gone
yeah, you'll get lonely when you dream of stockholm.
she controlled me like this, and I loved her for it
even if it didn't make any sense
I was her hostage, now you're my hostage
though some day you will say "what was I thinking"
but right now, you miss the abuse.
so, you miss me when I'm gone
yeah, you'll get lonely when you dream of stockholm.
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3. |
No One's Song
02:58
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no one's speaking up
"we all need a light"
"we all have to believe
and do what god says is right"
so I'm speaking up
I don't need a light
I don't want to believe
I'm just trying to stay alive.
alive.
if one plus two is three
then how come heaven and hell don't make sense to me
I used to say Find Your Light
and now I say fuck a light
dead or alive everything turns out alright
alright.
if we can't just learn to live in this moment
then what are we doing here?
yeah, just forget about it.
why can't you be happy
with out knowing what comes next?
yeah, just keep your eyes closed
and we'll both hope for the best.
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4. |
Thank You
00:25
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I want to thank you for showing me
a part of the world I've never seen
you knew it would mean so much to me.
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5. |
I Feel It
01:59
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I heard if from a friend
that you've been running away again
forgetting where you've been
turning your back on everything.
life has been confusing you,
and those talkers they keep talking
about you.
I feel it, and you feel it too.
there's nothing I can do,
but just keep waiting here for you.
heard it from someone
that you've been having your share of fun
yeah, somewhere downtown
where the side walks and streets lay down beneath our feet.
life has been consuming you,
and those talkers they're still talking
about you.
I feel it, and you feel it too.
there's nothing I can do,
but just keep waiting here for you.
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6. |
More Than Me
01:09
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I really want to get you out of my head
'cause you've been stuck inside of there, baby
ever since you left me here.
alone with my loneliness.
so, what do you say?
be my exclusive, baby
it really sounds good to me
so, I can be
more than me.
I can be more than me.
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7. |
Cross
02:01
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you carved a cross
in my arm
on the day i was born
now, are you with us?
or against us?
the choice is yours
just make the right move.
it's heaven or hell
it's black or it's white
right or wrong.
is there really only one way?
I want to live in the grey areas.
I'm asleep and awake
I'm real while I'm fake.
and I like it that way.
the thorns on his head
became the religion that they made,
and now it's the blood that's in my eyes,
and running down my face.
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8. |
Settling In
03:26
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dragging through the work week
going insane
praying for the weekend
to save me again.
never considering the precious life I'm wishing away.
this is me, settling in
this me becoming a man,
but this isn't me.
no, this isn't what I wanted to be
it's what I needed to be
to survive in this modern society.
dreaming through the weekend
feeling no pain
we all conviene together
to poison our brains.
never considering the broken lives we lead while we wake.
and we will wake to society.
this is me, settling in
this me becoming a man,
but this isn't me.
no, this isn't what I wanted to be
it's what I needed to be
oh, it's what I was forced to be
to survive in this modern society.
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9. |
Still A Part of Me
02:56
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is our time migrating?
or is it just hibernating?
maybe it's waiting
for the weather to break.
I swear it's true
that I forgot about you
but you're still a part of me somehow
but I don't know you now.
it's not like I hate you
or like I want to replace you
no, baby I just can't face you
when you don't own up to what you do.
I swear it's true
that I forgot about you
but you're still a part of me somehow
but I don't know you now.
I've always said
be careful when you're acting that way
'cause you just might end up all alone
but me I wouldn't know
'cause I left all of those years ago.
I swear it's true
that I forgot about you
but you're still a part of me somehow
but I don't know you now.
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meet me at the house on the hill
and we'll talk about all the things that need to be spoken about
like when you said you'd always be my friend
well, truth be told, you wouldn't shed a tear if you never saw me again.
but if you could've seen my face when they told me
you would've known that you're missed in this place
'cause old age is a gift and a curse
I say "I'm fine" but I've never felt worse.
but no, we move on
like there's nothing wrong
I guess I'm just waiting, for my turn to come along
and my turn will come along.
I've learned that there's a time for everything.
I had to learn how to deal with losing everyone around me
my younger brother just finally passed at 95.
had to learn how to deal with not knowing if the life I'm leading
is the one I'm supposed to.
I had to deal with being drafted into the army at age 18,
and watch my mother cry as I sailed away.
I had to deal with not knowing if I'd go to heaven or hell when I die,
but in the end no one knows, no one's going to know.
but no, I moved on
like there was nothing wrong
guess I'm just waiting for my turn to come along.
I had to learn to live with all these things like everyone else does
I had to learn to stop running away, and put other people before me
(in the end)
I learned at the end of every work day is emptiness.
without my family loving me,
I didn't matter how many things I did
or how many people I met
or how much money I made
oh, it didn't matter.
forget about it.
I had to learn to stop running away
put other people before me
it wasn't until then that I was truly happy.
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Ben Hughes New Jersey
"...channels musicians like Elliott Smith, Bright Eyes, and Sufjan Stevens, as on Hughes’ previous releases. But this record
immediately calls to mind Pedro the Lion’s Control, with its deep-voiced chords and melodies, lyrical themes of corporate hell, and Hughes’ slurring voice. It could stand as a complimentary album to Control just as well as it stands on its own."
-Nick Tate, WXPN
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Can hardly describe how great this record is, you're just going to need to trust me on this one...
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Greetings From Night Windows & Pilkington
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This is a split EP that was released via Black Rd Records that my band Night Windows contributed to. Pilkington's tracks on the split are amazing, and I sang back-up on All To Work. Give it a listen.
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A Week or Two That Will Sorely Be Missed
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"This is indie rock the way it used to be done before blogs turned it into an amorphous zone where artists who don’t rock can call themselves indie." Sam Wade, I Heart Noise
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Benjamin Shaw isn't all Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now, there's also beauty, noise, and a shoulder to lean on.
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Soccer Mommy re-affirms her emergent rock star status with a surging new LP that explores everyday struggles through the lens of synethesia.
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Soccer Mommy’s debut album presents her as a singular artist brimming with authenticity.
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