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what are you so afraid of?
what are you running away from?
why are you so afraid of being left all alone?
I keep these doors open incase I get kicked out of my house
my body starts aching, as my thoughts spread out
the hardest thing about staying here, is there's an easy way out
so, if you're wondering why, that's why I'm always running around.
what are you so afraid of?
what are you running away for?
why are you so afraid of committing to the one you love?
I keep these doors open incase I get kicked out of my house
my body starts aching, as my thoughts spread out
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Scars
02:20
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why do I want?
why can't I have?
why do I pick at every scab?
hide it away, swallow the pain
deal with these scars another day.
why can't I be alone?
always stumbling around
drunk on the telephone.
hiding away from my pain
I'll face myself another day.
can't you see?
I'm just trying to find my way
can't you see?
I'm just trying to make it through another day.
why do I think you're my answer,
and then get to you and yearn for her?
this never ends, I'll never be ok
if I can't make a change today.
can't you see?
I'm just trying to find my way
can't you see?
I'm just trying to make it through another day.
I need help
can't do this myself
tried for three years and it got me no where
can't hide it away, got to deal with this pain
deal with these scars today.
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Goddamn
02:22
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I know it's easy to stay the same
but if you're unhappy then make a change
yeah, I made a mistake
but at the time of it's birth I wanted it that way.
now, you sit outside my window
howling like a dog
though I can't see you,
you're still on my mind.
unless I do this for myself,
I will never ever truly change
so, I'll stay here in the middle
just drinking away my pain.
it's the way I'm cursed to believe
everything is the way I perceive
say I'm the victim
but I should have know better
goddamn, goddamn.
it's getting harder and harder
to not take the easy way out
but my father he still loves me
he knows my pain, and prays
while I drink my life away.
away.
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life's a gift, but work's a curse
even worse you've got me considering
faking insanity just to get out
lock me up in those padded rooms,
and save me.
'cause I've got this little brother
who has just graduated high school
last night we drank until the morning
and he confessed to me that he'd been fooled.
by teachers, preachers, parents and friends.
he said they told me that I could be what I wanted to be
now, look at me.
I've got no base, don't believe in anything
I'm mediocre man in the midst of lots of sin
but I'd rather it be this way
at least I'm not wasting my time
trying to fake.
but I've got this older sister
who's about to have a baby
I think she's worried that her son
is going to fall victim to the American Dream
thanks to preachers, teachers, parents and friends
that are going to tell him that he can be anything
but take a look around and tell me
who wanted to type for all their life?
who wanted to sweep 9-5?
I don't even have a dream
that's what Michael said to me
I don't even have a dream
I can still hear it in my ear.
I don't even have a dream anymore.
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Death Bed
03:43
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you said you couldn't do it anymore
I guess you got tired of waiting on the answer you were looking for.
I would keep pretending, and push through
but it's just not fair to you.
I'm lying on my death bed, baby
and now that it's here, I'm not so sure that I wanted life to go so fast.
but like we always do, I'll be born again
into a circle of new friends.
I'll be making promises, and making new plans
hoping that some day I'll be born into a life
where I can be a stronger man,
'cause this just isn't fair to you.
I'm lying on my death bed, baby
and now that it's here, I'm not so sure that I wanted life to go so fast.
hopefully these separate roads don't leave us sad and alone.
I'm scared of the thought but I don't leave now, we'll never know.
I'm lying on my death bed, baby
and now that it's here, I'm not so sure that I wanted life to go so fast.
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I Was Once A Seed
03:21
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I was once a seed
until I dug down into the dirt to become a tree
and now I'm falling toward the ground in the shape of holly leaf
where I will dig into your feet.
I understand if you can't love me the way that I am
just please darling don't pretend
that you love me.
so, sweep me out onto the porch
I'll go from green to yellow to brown then I won't come around anymore
and if you're worried about being alone,
you can rest assured.
'cause you will, then you won't, then you will, then you won't
'til you're not around anymore.
anymore.
I understand if you can't love me the way that I am
just please darling don't pretend
that you love me
that you want me
that you're so above me
that you can't live without me.
now, I'm growing out the ground as a tomato plant
and all my brothers laughed, and said to me "you don't stand a chance"
but then I pushed out one tomato you just couldn't resist
and then we laughed about our past and began to kiss.
'cause loves not love unless you give it a second chance.
loves not love, unless you give it a second chance.
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Power
04:05
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abuse that power, 'cause after all you've earned it
so crush my spirits, 'cause in your eyes I deserve it.
I see the anger in your eyes,
but at least you're not depressed and keeping it inside.
you know I'm kind and sensitive,
but you've got your power and you're using it.
abuse that power, 'cause after all you've earned it
so crush my spirits, 'cause in your eyes I deserve it.
how can you be happy in this life
while you walk and curse everyone in sight?
I feel like nobody has no tolerance,
but I'm sticking up for my self with self-defense.
abuse that power, 'cause after all you've earned it
so crush my spirits, 'cause in your eyes I deserve it.
I've never been too good with timing
and when you're yelling at me, it's hard to keep smiling
but you're happily frowning, controlling everything around me.
abuse that power, 'cause after all you've earned it
so crush my spirits, 'cause in your eyes I deserve it.
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Television
04:27
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what if you're the only safe water to drink?
what if you're the only safe air to breathe?
and what if you're not?
what if I watched you like a television?
what if when I changed the channel,
I only wanted to change back to you?
what if I changed back too late?
would you forgive me?
what if I found myself lost and alone,
in a world that I used to share with you?
what if it didn't bother me?
these questions keep me paralyzed
in this world that I used to share with you.
what would you do if I said I miss you?
what if I changed back to late?
would you forgive me?
what would you do if I said I miss you?
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Maria
02:05
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Maria, you should've seen her hold the gun in her hand
she walked into the corner store with her child on her mind
because she was doing it this time.
"give me all the money in the register, sir
no, I don't want to have to come in here no more
if daddy didn't leave little Sadie behind
I wouldn't be here pointing this gun at you tonight."
Maria, you should've seen her hold the money and run
she walked in to the corner store with no mask on
to buy groceries for precious Sadie.
"mommy's coming home with some food tonight
yeah, everything is going to be just alright
Sadie, mommy loves you very much
so feel free to lay your head right next to me honey, tonight."
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10. |
Just Let Her Go
03:22
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I am fucked, forever, no one understands.
'cause I won't let them in, no.
be patient, boy.
just let her go
you can't spend all your time
running away from being alone.
I am wearing myself out, killing the real me.
so, what do I trust now?
be patient, boy.
just let her go
you can't spend all your time
running away from being alone.
well, I used to have hope, but now I'm just alone.
be patient, boy.
just let her go
you can't spend all your time
running away from being alone.
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Nothing's Perfect
03:48
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I know nothing's perfect, but I'm trying not care.
I know there's a good life for me, waiting somewhere out there.
you know you've been hard on me, i'm trying not to be so sensitive.
society, my friends and my family want me to be a man,
but I'm still a frightened kid.
you're ok, you're alright.
you're ok, you're just fine.
I know life is far from fair, people rarely get what they deserve.
you know life is anything but fair.
listen, but don't believe what you have heard.
you're ok, you're alright.
you're ok, you're just fine.
and I know nothing's perfect, but I'm trying not to care.
and I know there's a good life for me, waiting somewhere out there.
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Ben Hughes New Jersey
"...channels musicians like Elliott Smith, Bright Eyes, and Sufjan Stevens, as on Hughes’ previous releases. But this record
immediately calls to mind Pedro the Lion’s Control, with its deep-voiced chords and melodies, lyrical themes of corporate hell, and Hughes’ slurring voice. It could stand as a complimentary album to Control just as well as it stands on its own."
-Nick Tate, WXPN
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Can hardly describe how great this record is, you're just going to need to trust me on this one...
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Greetings From Night Windows & Pilkington
by Black Rd Records
This is a split EP that was released via Black Rd Records that my band Night Windows contributed to. Pilkington's tracks on the split are amazing, and I sang back-up on All To Work. Give it a listen.
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A Week or Two That Will Sorely Be Missed
by Night Windows
"This is indie rock the way it used to be done before blogs turned it into an amorphous zone where artists who don’t rock can call themselves indie." Sam Wade, I Heart Noise
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Goodbye, Cagoule World
by Benjamin Shaw
Benjamin Shaw isn't all Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now, there's also beauty, noise, and a shoulder to lean on.
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Soccer Mommy re-affirms her emergent rock star status with a surging new LP that explores everyday struggles through the lens of synethesia.
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Soccer Mommy’s debut album presents her as a singular artist brimming with authenticity.
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